An explanation

Dis Astrum: Latin root disaster

1580, from M.Fr. desastre (1564), from It. disastro "ill-starred," from dis- "away, without" + astro "star, planet," from Latin astrum, from Greek astron. The sense is astrological, of a calamity blamed on an unfavorable position of a planet.

To suffer a disaster is to lose one's star (dis-astrum)

and this blogs title
"In My Mind Sigh"
It is a play on sounds, taken from In my minds eye (taken to mean as i see things) and a Sigh which means "to take a deep audible breath (as in weariness or relief)" or an exhalation of breath. This can be taken to mean that i am expelling out the way i see things.

this of course... is a disaster. wan-wahhhh

Caw the cravyn raven blacke

Caw the cravyn raven blacke
As he tryed a neu hand at the oldest tacke
But forget and forgottyn
The crowe olde facte
Thou canst mayke a Dove
Wyth whyte over blacke
- myself

Encourage Yourself

As we go through life we all reach a point, (or several points) where we find ourselves in a dim hour. It would seem that at this moment that you just don't have the strength or willpower to keep that smile on your face. We feel pressured by others to keep that wall up and prevent them from knowing just how badly you feel. You have to be happy because they don't want to see you sad and they might be going through something so you have to be strong. You are expected to be happy. And so this wall of facial expression hides from the rest of the world everything you don't want them to see. Everything that they need to see. We, everyone of us, has a facade. A front that we put up to show the world what we think they want to see of us. but there comes a time when that facade must come down, the mask must be removed because the Jesters Farce is over. Stop for a minute and ask yourself what you are doing? Why is it so difficult to keep the mask up? because it is a mask, a cover. It prevents people from seeing the real you, which is what we all really, really want. So take a moment to talk to yourself, set down the mask and really look at yourself. You are made by God. Crafted by His loving hands and heart. The beauty you have is yours alone and a mask only hides that beauty. Do not be afraid to show the real you, allow yourself to adapt to the ever fluctuating emotions that come with life. Forever remember, we all will reach a low point, but without the low there would be no high. Without the Valley there would be no Mountain. Let someone in to see the real emotions you are facing and allow them to encourage you, and when there seems like no one is around. Encourage yourself.

For life is at times
a worrysome place
we so often find
many trials to face

but God is our Fortress
and believe we must
that He will never leave us
In Him may we trust.

For angels on high
sent to guard us low
prove every nigh
He loves us so

personal diet

well folks, it appears that my daily diet of soda has changed. no longer do i drink soda or even crave it so much as i once did. I now am drinking 100% all natural Green tea with Ginseng and Honey. But have you ever done something for so long and it becomes a habit as well as an addiction? Meh, i was addicted to the fizz from soda. not so much the sugar as the carbonation. and for the longest time that was all i drank. It was bad for my health and definitely bad for my kidneys. i could have ended in a real bad spot. while i do occasionally drink soda now and then i does not hold that same sway anymore. just thought i would let y'all know.

According to recent survey, the cause of the ever increasing number of effeminate men is due to the fact testosterone is our planets most rapidly depleting natural resource.

School is now in session... again...

well, i started school today... at 6 am. yes, I woke up at 530 am this morning! I console myself by saying that it is noon o'clock somewhere. Why is it so hard to wake up so early. you can go to bed early and still if its before 9 you are like... "WHY ME??" did i mention it's a math class?

that aside, its painting class in an hour and then a couple hours till photography class. those should be fun. its linguistics and argumentation tomorrow. argumentation sounds fun too! heh, now i need to take persuasive speaking... (world take over and domination is coming to fruition! MUWAHAHAHAHAHA*cough*aaaaahahahha...heheh... oh man i need to practice my evil laugh.)

well, thats the agenda. i really hate this but i am going to miss prayer tonight and tomorrow. it sucks but i planned my schedule last year and all. I did talk to my youth pastor and he in turn spoke with the pastor and they both said it should be fine. i need to post some pictures from my art on here... will do so in my next post.

until then

sincerely
Johann Heinrich Jeffansen Kimboll, esq.

plans for twenty oh-nine

well, i have a few plans for 2009. it looks to be a very, very busy year.

January I get to see an old friend... Which I havn't seen for 6 years. So you can say its been a while. Also I start my spring semester at city college. I will be taking Math 103 (algebra 2), Biology 3, Linguistics 11, painting (oil/acrylics), and speech 25(argumentation). looks to be a busy semester with 18 units. though I may change things around. my teus/thurs are shot.

February is pretty slim on things to do, mainly getting settled into the college groove and all. Youth Retreat will be going on that month and I deff plan on going.

March I am planning on going to Ireland! The old friend that I mentioned has decided to take over my life and signed me up for a trip. hope I get my passport in time. heh.

April... meh, boring!

May though, now the 2nd is my birthday. I turn 21 and now I legally not drink, or something. wow though, twenty-one. I remember as a kid thinking about being that old and it seemed so far away. its almost here!

June: out of school woo woo! did I mention that math class is going to be at 6 am... SLEEPING IN!!!!!

July is Youth Camp, both weeks. Apparently I am the best pots/pans guy they've ever had. How bad were those guys exactly??? but I am searching for a mega-SuperSoaker. If anyone has any idea on where to find one it would be appreciated. I havn't seen the good ones since I was a kid.

Also this summer there is supposedly going to be a couple months teaching english in Peru. I would love to do this but I don't know where I will find the time. I don't want to sacrifice going to camp, but this is more of a one time deal. we will see.

come fall I will attempt to return to school, and possibly transfer to State. *salivates at the idea* I really cannot wait to go! Gonna get my teaching credential and in two years start making some money. or at least start working. I just have to make sure my impatience does not get the best of me. The more patient I am I may be able to get my masters at the same time I get my credential. Which means more moolah! (yes, I said moolah!)

I would like to spend 2009 single, as I have spent 2008. This year I've questioned a lot of things and learned a lot about myself. plus if I get a girlfriend I have to spend money on her, keeping me from spending it on important things like Nerf guns and SuperSoakers!

Speaking of Nerf guns, I just bought two. In addition to the one I already have. lol! The yellow pistol I already had. bought that a little while ago.

PostThanksgiving Blog

well, I had an awesome thanksgiving weekend. Went to my grandmothers on Thursday where I pigged out and had soooo much food. woooooah man was it good too. Friday I did a rare thing and actually slept until noon. usually I wake up before then whether I want to or not but this time I did. After I got up I went and played Hockey for two, maybe three, hours. Which was awesomeness. total awesomeness. after that I went home and enjoyed my evening. The next morning, which was saturday, I went to my Aunt and Uncle's house. And saw my favoritest cousin EVER! She is da bomb. Say anything bad to me and she'll kick you're behind to china.

In other news, I'm attempting to expand my artistic skills to comic book making. well, comic making. I and a friend are discussing the creation of a Webcomic. I'll attempt to post updates about it and let people know if it ever comes to fruition... funny word... fruition. lol.